I originally posted this on Intersect, back when I was producing The Daily’s Double Shot, a TV show I helped create in early 2010. Reading it now, while I’m preparing to graduate from college and have no idea what type of job I’ll have in June (or if I’ll have one), makes me realize that I’ll really be okay with whatever happens.
I never really wanted this job. Being a producer. I didn’t want to be like Holly Hunter in Broadcast News. She was, you know, that sorta hard-nosed bitch of an executive producer everyone loved to hate. Sure, people admired her. But at the end of the day, a young(er) Joan Cusack said something like, “You’re my role model… except not socially.”
When I was in high school, I wanted to be softer. To be that pretty reporter on camera. The Asian one with the nice eyebrows and the polished nails and the curled hair and that voice of authority. I’d do host-like things, like sit on a couch on the set of The Today Show with the likes of Natalie Morales and Ann Curry as we gabbed about the latest thing some Hollywood socialite did.